[	mood	|	pissed off	]
[	music	|	Avenged Sevenfold -- "Second Heartbeat"	]

Talk about growing up. Look at Erin and John, you tell me how fucking mature that is... Throwing lame insults at each other non-stop because of something that happened along time ago?!? Ohhh soo mature... And Erin has the nerve to tell me to grow up?! "HA" is all I have to say to that. Well Goodbye....

[	mood	|	rejected	]
[	music	|	From Autumn To Ashes -- "The After Dinner Payback"	]

Ok. John, I'm still not going to agree with you about her being a bitch, cuz she's not. When you think of someone being a bitch, you think evil, nasty, extremely hateful kinda people. Erin really doesn't fit under any of that. So yeah...and I'm honestly NOT trying to be mean, but I wish you'd just stay out of this...Erin doesn't need anymore stress...

And for Erin... You just don't understand. How worse could it be??? *braces self* I will make you a goddamn list... oh and another thing, my mom is not the reason I'm *spoiled*, ok? It's my dad that is the nice one, I love my dad. But as for my mom...

1. She's chased me around my house with a knife multiple times.
2. Choked me
3. Hit me/Slaps me on daily occasion
4. Beat me with wooden spoons etc. And I dont mean just the occasional hit.
5. She's tried to leave me places. (ex. woods)
6. She's locked me out of the house, the only reason I get back in is because of my dad.
7. She cusses out my little sister on an hourly basis.
8. She's abandoned me multiple times. (ex. goes somewhere with me, pretends to get mad over something minor, uses it as an excuse to leave me stranded and drive away.

...the list goes on...but I think you'll get the fucking idea...drama queen my ass...

Good Riddance--Martin

[	mood	|	creative	]
[	music	|	Dead silence...	]

Well. Today was a mix of emotions...

Early on I was in a reallly good mood, even though I had to cut grass. I even saw a old japan lady running and dancing at the same time. It was hillarious.

But then I got into this really huge argument with my mom which I will not get into..Let's just say i sobbed for quite some time...all of this went on in front of my sisters friend too. All this led to me realizing that maybe I don't want to go back out with Erin...She refuses to believe anything that happens to me just because she thinks someone elses mom is worse. Well it's flat out bullshit. She has no idea, just because I never say anything to anyone, doesn't mean that nothing goes on. And then when I need someone most she goes "Well I don't have much to say, because you have it easy compared to so and so, so I really can't believe you." I mean honestly how the fuck does she know?!

I'll enter the rest of my night tomorrow...I gtg to bed.

Goodnight all--Martin

[	mood	|	pissed off	]
[	music	|	Alkaline Trio -- "Warbrain"	]

Well...here's summer...school's over...hell begins.

I hate summer. Particularly because I'm around my mom all day. Yeah...she doesn't let me sleep in.. If I sleep past what she thinks is acceptable for the day, she yells my name across the fucking house until I wake up which pisses me off soooo bad. And then she makes me do stupid shit for her all day, which leaves me no time to even fuckin relaz cuz every time I even think about sitting down I hear "Martin come here now!" or "Martin get your ass out of that room and help me!" She's a fucking asshole.

And now today she says that I'm not aloud to drive "our" (petaining to her and my dad's)car to work anymore because my dad always takes her car now when he needs to go somewhere and she's "stuck at home." FUCK NO! 1. ITS NOT HER CAR WHATSOEVER! It's mine and my dad's. not hers AT ALL. 2. SHE's to fucking fat and lazy anyways to go anywhere. 3. When my dad does go somewhere, he's never gone for more than 10 minutes, and he RARELY goes anywhere. So now, I have to depend on her getting of her lazy ass to take me, she is DAMN WRONG if she thinks I'm fuckin walking to work...

So summer so far sucks ASS and we haven't even gotten report cards yet....oh joy...

Left without a sign of hope--Martin